icouldjustdie

lines on faces

2006-03-15T20:07:40Z

he has a few more than i do. four years between us can feel like a mountain sometimes. there are things that i've yet to learn, and i'm hoping that i'll learn them with him.

this has been good for me, and i love him for it.

negative nelly

2006-02-21T20:33:11Z

graduate school's for losers anyhow. right? i'm pooped. pooped from doing absolutely nothing, and now, all i can seem to do is more of nothing. i don't want to write a personal statement because i'm uninteresting and run-of-the-mill. no more school shit. i can't stand this. i hate writing. i hate it, but i love it more. i just wish i didn't have to write about myself. what a crock of shit. i'm exhausted from being anxious all the time. i'm exhausted from being in a foul mood. i'm exhausted from worrying about other things like boys and love and whether or not it's unrequited. i'm about ready to blow. i need a vacation. i should drive to new mexico, i bet it's quiet over there. be gone with you. graduate school application process. i'm going to crawl under my desk now.

you rocked the hearing out of my left ear

2006-02-06T18:26:21Z

and left it aching. i'm so stupid for you.

monday

2006-01-30T21:24:42Z

today is the day after chinese new year. yesterday, i didn't leave the house at all. to keep from going crazy, i started drinking at 4 pm . . . i was in bed by 8:30p. thank god. i slept for almost 12 hours. needless to say, I'm very well rested today. yesterday was not a complete wash, though. i learned how to make carrot flowers. very proud. work is busy, which is great. my boss called me a dream come true . . . aww shucks. i'm going to see phil shane gyrate on wednesday. on sat., i get to see my old boss, jon and his wife deb -- they both really love me and austen (and we love them), then i'm going to see of montreal. lucky me. i'm very congested right now. i need drugs. mmmm.... bye.